“I told my baby, ‘If you were alive I
would never leave you. I have no choice, please forgive me’.” Those were
the chilling words of Amina (not real name), to her 28-dayold son, who
allegedly died in her hands, minutes before she fled through the vast
Sambisa forest, in a desperate bid to escape the outlawed terror group,
Recounting her experience, Amina, aged 20, told an online news portal, Mirror.co.uk, that
the memory of her tiny baby’s body lying lifeless in the dust at the
base of a tree in Sambisa Forest tortured her intermittently having been
held captive for five years by the group.
But with her baby just 28 days old and
very sick, it was too late for him (the baby) to survive the harsh
environment in Sambisa forest as he took his final breath in her
“I couldn’t hold down the tears as I saw
my child lifeless and about to be abandoned,” Amina, who explained,
recalling with nostalgia that she was snatched away from her parents at
the age of 15.
Irked by this development, Amina resolved not to go back to her demented captors; since she did not know what lay ahead.
Speaking further, Amina said she, “left
him under that tree, hoping on some irrational level it would protect
him. His remains are probably still there.”
For obvious reasons, it was gathered
that Amina’s case draws references to the myriad of other young girls,
who by virtue of similar situations, also found themselves in such
peculiar state as only a mother truly terrified and desperate could do
such to her baby.
“I was forced into marriage three times,
and had a child with each husband,” she tells me, when we meet in Muna
refugee camp in Maiduguri, the region’s capital.
When I sit next to her it has only been
five weeks since her escape. Fiddling nervously with her hands, Amina
explained that she was visiting her elder sister in her home town of
Baga in Borno State when a car stopped and 10 Boko Haram fighters jumped
“They were purposefully hunting for
girls to kidnap,” she explains. When she protested, they beat her to a
state of unconsciousness.
When she opened her eyes, she was in the
Sambisa forest, an area three times the size of Wales, as she said: “I
found myself in a mist of 200 women.”
Recalling further, she said at least one
of the girls was a Chibok schoolgirl as they became friends. She is, to
her knowledge, still there.
“She was also forced into marriage and
has a child. She is very unhappy, her husband has two other wives senior
to her and they don’t give her food. She is hungry, and he beats her,”
she said. Amina was immediately forced into marriage with a 40-year-old
Boko Haram brute.
“They put a gun to my head. There were
women who had refused. But they were tied up and raped,” she said.Inline
image Her husband was vicious.
“He dislocated my arm,” she recalls. She
was of course, raped repeatedly. Within a couple of months, she was
pregnant. Just four days after the birth of her son, now four, her
husband went with the terror group to attack a village and was killed.
Amina, who said she was forced to marry again, said: “The second man was
50, he would beat me too.
When I refused sex, he locked me up.”
The sexual assault on her resulted into another pregnancy. And yet
again, seven months into her pregnancy, this man was killed in a village
attack. She gave birth to a little girl, now three, and with little
time to recover was again forced to marry, to a man in his late forties.
“Almost immediately, I was pregnant
again.” Traumatised, the only time Amina smiled was when she speaks of
her children. She explains although their fathers were evil, she had
never struggled to love them as she stated: “They are all I have.
It does not matter.” It was perhaps this
fearsome love which gave her the courage to flee. Her chance came when
her husband got into a fight with another terrorist, while the community
was distracted and eventually she grabbed the kids, ran for five days
and was drinking from puddles all through.
She believed her baby died of starvation
as she had no breast milk to give. Finally last month, she reached a
roadside in Maiduguri and begged strangers who offered to help.
But the case of Amina and her child
remains a touchy one considering the fact that prior to her escape, the
Nigerian Army on December 20, 2016, made an incredible breakthrough
against Boko Haram, rescuing 1,880 women and children held by them in
the Sambisa Forest, and arresting 504 men.
Though her grief is overwhelming; the
emotional scars remains a lifelong as Amina said she was yet to begin
the counselling offered by aid agencies like UNICEF, despite revealing
that tests showed that she is HIV positive.
Most of the time, according to reports,
she still looks numb as she tries to hold her slim body still, perhaps
due to the self-training which she got over the years of abuse to try to
be invisible. There is no expression on her young face.
This is because her body begins to
shudder with gutteral, primal, sobs once she talks about her baby.
Thankfully, her parents have survived and are also there, along with her
sisters, her sisters though happy, are more wary.
“They insult my children,” she says,
sadly. While expressing shock over the kidnap of 276 schoolgirls from
their boarding school in Chibok in April 2014, UNICEF child protection
worker, Labaran Babangida, said the youngest escaped captive he has met
is just 10.
“She was repeatedly raped and because she is very small she now cannot control her bladder,” he says.
“We cannot find her family.” Another girl, Aisha, who I meet in Maiduguri’s Dalorie refugee camp, was 13 when she was snatched.
Now safe, she is 15, with a
seven-month-old baby, Fatima, on her knee – her captor’s child. “He
forcibly used me,” she says, embarrassed.
“I was confused, I didn’t know what was
right.” These girls, especially the young ones, are regularly used by
Boko Haram as suicide bombers, too. Just two days after we leave
Maiduguri, two girls believed to be seven or eight detonate bombs in the
town’s market killing themselves, one other, and injuring 18.
On the part of Amina, she was never
forced to do this as she claimed that said she knew those girls who
were. “One told me she had been told to carry a bomb to a market,” Amina
recalls. “I told her ‘Run away, think of the elderly, the children you
And she did.” However, Saturday
Telegraph learnt that 30 girls like Amina have arrived the Internally
Displaced Persons (IDPs) camp in the past two weeks.
Interestingly, the camp holds over
40,000, is one of 18 in the town, and over 40 across the region with
over two million persons already displaced by the terror group.
For many Boko Haram captives, reunion is
difficult. Families are suspicious of the girls, they see them as
tainted, their children as evil.
They also fear they are on a mission to
detonate bombs for the terrorists. Commenting also, the Chief Child
Protection Officer for UNICEF, Rachel Harvey, said the girls often
suffer PTSD. She said UNICEF educates hostile communities too, stressing
that: “People believe the babies of Boko Haram could grow up to become a
threat. I have heard of babies being killed.”
According to her, Amina is a woman
crushed – but not quite, I think, broken. She said Amina is “stubborn”
but confessed that: “I don’t want to marry again, I want to be alone and
with my children.”